Stressed Out

I could not think of a more perfect word for what describes today.

I usually don't tell about my personal problems on here but I will tell you this: With everything that I've gone through, I feel totally depressed. No one knows what I'm going through and no one has any clue what's been bothering me or on my mind. Like many, I may seem happy and cheery all the time, but really, I'm totally not. I usually never tell people about how sad I am but really, I need to voice out.

On top of all my desolation, I have a French test, math test, and a 9 page essay for English due tomorrow that I should have been working on for 2 weeks now. I'm totally screwed.

This has just driven me overboard.

(This is before I was stressed)



(This is what we do in class)

The MOST Painful Day

Ugh! I fucking hated today.

So my morning actually started off rather well. I woke up early and was able to finish getting ready.

Then as 3rd period came around, I started getting really bad aching cramps and I knew it was that time of the month again.

As I was standing at my locker during break, I feel a huge "WOOSH!" And that's when I knew the painter was in.

In 4th period, I started getting some pretty bad cramps which I never have, except this one time which was REALLY bad.

After, 5th period came around and thats when my cramps were fucking painful as hell. I felt like I couldn't even think, see, or breathe. Like I wasn't even alive. So I sat their the whole period in the WORST pain ever.

I couldn't take it and I wanted to vomit so B took me home during lunch. So when I got home, I got into bed and tried to sleep. After a while, I was finally able to nap. I woke up a couple of hours later and now the cramps are getting light. But still, OUCH!

Rejected

So today was a scary-ugly-tired day.

I woke up with a scary dream, so my morning already started awful. and scary. I woke up early and for some reason, I didn't have enough time to get ready so I just went to school looking like a mess. When I got to school, I felt extremely ugly and I seriously was not even sporting any makeup.

Oh, and during Chem, Ms. Hart told us something I found to be VERY scary. In short, she told us that you can't see what you don't believe. It went more in detail and she gave us some examples that just totally freaked me out and is currently freaking me out. I also explained to her that I had been having scary dreams and she told me that meant there was something I'm deeply worried about and my body is saying that I really don't have to be too worried about it. I think it's my English essay/project.

So as the day went on, I just wanted to go home and roll up in my snuggling warm Don sweater. The good news about today was that I finished my math homework in class and also during English, a very sincere gentleman did an extremely nice and helpful thing for me, even though it meant sacrificing himself. He's a total life savior. <3

So finally after my ugly, disgusting day, I was able to go home. But then, I went to Don's house right after school and even though I wasn't wearing any makeup still, I felt much better and natural rather then just hideous. School just gives me a mucky feeling.

Around 8, we went to Valley Fair and that's where the rejection starts taking place. It wasn't really too dreadful though. It's just that every place doesn't hire until you're 18!

An Extremely Monotonous Break

I must say... THIS HAS BEEN THE MOST BORING BREAK... EVER!

Nothing interesting has been happening in my life, it sucks. All I've been doing is playing at Don's older sister's house for the past Wii3 nights until 1 in the morning. Before that, all I did was hibernate at Don's house until 2 in the morning. What a wasted break. Oh, and I gained about 5 pounds in 5 days.

Yesterday, B, M, and I drove pretty far for this nail place. I just got a manicure while B got these really cute air brushed zebra tips. Very cute on her.

After, we went to M's house and she got ready for work while B and I vented about our predicaments.

Now, I have the biggest English assignment I've ever had in my life. Well, in a VERY long time and I haven't exactly started AND it's due tomorrow. I was suppose to start 2 weeks ago and I've waited until the last day of break. Like always.

Plus, I have another story for journalism due tomorrow. I haven't started either. Does anyone want to be interviewed about the Winter Sports Rally?

Today, I Am An Adult

Yay yay yay yay yee yee yee!!! Today, I got my driver's license! with 11 mistakes... XD

Can't wait to celebrate tonight! <3

Petroglifs

I was extremely ravenous today so at night, I ate like a cow.

My day started with Don waking me up at 11:15 to go to Petroglifs with his little sister (Linh) and her two friends (Lindsay and Christina), like we planned the day before.

Then, I got ready and they all came around 11:45. From there, we went to Petrofligs which is this place where you paint objects of your choosing and then they glaze it for you so it looks really awesome. I got an egg teapot which also has a cup. Don chose a t-rex piggy bank. Linh decided to paint a mug with a dog imprinted on it. Lindsay painted a plain mug and Christina got a heart box which she made for her mom.

We painted for about 2 and a half hours and all of us were super exhausted after but it was fun. I was really concentrated most of the time and I think all of ours looked pretty cute but we'll see how they come out in 2 days. We were STARVING when we finished since none of us had eaten all day.

After that, we went to a candy store right next door which had A LOT of different candies. There were a lot of rare candies, ice cream, gelato, and chocolates like no other candy store I've ever seen before. Although, things were a bit pricey so no one bought anything.

From there, we went to pick up coffee for Don's mom at Bamboo and all 5 of us went in to see this supposedly "slutty" girl.

Then we dropped off Christina, she had some meeting to go to. Then we had to pump gas. *still starving!

Finally, we were able to get McDonalds. All of us were STARVING... STILL. I could have eaten a whale.

We went back to Don and Linh's house to eat and all of us were savages. Well mostly Don and I.

When we were done, we went to go get brownie mix from Safeway because Lihn and I felt like making brownies.

Then we went to drop off Lindsay.

When we got back to Don's house, Lihn and I made brownies and they came out... not so good. Haha.

After that, I fell asleep for like 50 minutes and then we went to their older sister's house around 11 in E.V.

We played Guitar Hero and Don and Linh played Wii. I was very tired and her blanket was so comfy!

Then I got home around 12:45 and it was an extensive day.

A Flowery Escapade

So I totally can't wait to tell you about my sustained day.

First, I woke up at 7 in the morning and drove to Los Gatos for 2 hours. I was so effing exasperated, I never wanted to sock some one so badly... well maybe I have. But enough about that.

When I came home, I made soup, did laundry, got pretty, and M came around 12.

From there, we went to B's house and she had just woken up so M and I waited in the car for like 30 minutes until she was done getting ready.

Then we went to Forever 21 to look for white dresses but didn't find any. B got some flip flops and M got cute, black work pants for her new job at Macaroni Grill tomorrow! Exciting!

After that, we went to Thrifty's for ice cream!!

Next, we found ourselves making our way to M's house to get ready for the revelry.

Yes, the gala was fun indeed. We soaked up the sun, danced around, and laughed.

Then we went back to M's house to decide what to do and we settled on going to McDonalds which was very yummy.

Now it's only 5 and I'm pooped.

A Night To Remember

Last night was certainly a night to remember for the rest of my life. <3

My Little Secret

Since I can't blog about it, I'll keep it to myself =)

But, today was the best Valentine's Night ever. Everything was perfect and it was: beautiful.

Oh! And I love my Pez candy thing. It's so cute! Thanks Bon!

(Pictures are too clandestine)

Another Demoralizing Day

I was a train wreck at school.

So after school, Bon Bon, Rainbow Girl, and I went shopping at Eastridge. Actually it was more just Bon. It was so effing gross as we were leaving my house. Bon was like "Oh, I have a present for you! Look out the window!" And there it was. A dead squirrel on the floor that had been brutally mutilated by a vehicle. So anyways, I didn't find anything cute! And now Rainbow Girl and my buttocks are in agony.

A Poignant Day

Something was really bothering me today but I was just being over emotional about it.

I was super extra tired this morning... even though I slept earlier at like 2. So omg, I fell asleep in first period today which was weird because I could never seem to slumber in that class. Not because it's fun or motivating but it's just so hard to sleep right after you get ready.

Undeniably, second period got me into a bad mood due to my teacher. He totally had something up his ass today and erased one of my "annouces!" Fuck, I hate talking to him.

Third period was so sluggish.

Journalism finally brightened my day and my depressing morning was concluded.

Happy Birthday To Don's 18!!

So today was so fun and romantic and just beautiful and exquisite!! <3>Don! In addition, today was his super 18th birthday!!! Yay him!

This morning, we went to get McDonalds which totally started the day off good.

Let's see, school was pleasant, especially with the sunny weather. Bleh, math test. I had lots of fun in Journalism interviewing my favorite people!! =D So much fun. Everything was pretty fun except for some over dramatic commercialized drama.

Then, after school, Birthday Boy and I went to get slurpees. After, went to Birthday Boy's house for like 30 minutes. Then, we found ourselves making our way to my house to have some adult Birthday Boy fun. Jk!

Before we knew it, it was 5 and I got ready to go to Birthday Boy's birthday dinner with just a few friends at Maggianos. When we were getting in the car to go back to Birthday Boy's house so that he could get ready, I made a completely clumsy move. I knocked over my 1/4 slurpee drink and spilled it all over Birthday Boy's car floor. Inept me.

So then we went to Birthday Boy's house so he could get ready while I completely cleaned his car for him! Total <3.> After, we went to pick up the following people up in the subsequent order: Derek, Alex D., then Zaharra.

When we finally made it to Maggiano's, we had to wait an entire hour for Jordan, Jenn, and Jean to arrive. So, dinner started at 9 instead of 8 like it was suppose too. Tonight was though and Aaron came also, looking very sophisticated, as always. Even though the dinner was delayed and fleeting, i would have to say it was a night well spent.

Birthday Boy says he had a great time too, especially thanks to me!

Happy Birthday Don! Loves you <3

Cheesecake and Sadies

So my last two days have been super fun!

Yesterday, we sort of celebrated Ashley's (my best friend/cousin) birthday! It was just Ashley, Sharon (another cousin), and I. First, we were going to go watch Hannah Montana's concert in theaters, but it was really crowded. Plus, I was like the only one who knew all her songs, haha. So instead, we went shopping around Oakridge and ate at the Cheesecake Factory afterwards. It was extra yummy since all of of were ravenous. In addition with my Miso Salmon, the raspberry white chocolate truffle or whatever was totally delectable. Then, around 11 or so, we went back to Ashley's aunts house and I had a complete food coma while the other two talked. Around 1:30, I left, went home, and fell asleep again.

Today was Sadies. I actually had fun, unlike homecoming which wasn't really enjoyable. Beside that, I didn't do much. Oh, at the dance, I sweat into my eye. Am I going to get an eye disease?

Chinese New Year Eve

So school was dreary but other then that, it was loads of fun.

This morning, I woke up "en retard" and I was rushing to get ready at about 10:30. Then M and B came in the middle of me putting on my make up and rushed me some more. After, we were suppose to get bagels but we decided that none of us were craving any. Oh yeah, and it was the first time I had been in the car while M was driving, exciting! So instead of bagels, B went to PW and got some roast beef and yogurt, M got this cinnamon swirl thing she loves with a warm beverage at Starbucks, and I got an original white gummy. Then, we went to M's house to pick up a permission slip. After that, we B's house to get her sister. And off to school.

It wasn't exactly school. I only had Journalism and Math. Nothing spontaneous had occurred.

After school, I went to Don's house and just snuggled. I had 2 cups of noodles in a row...

At night, my family and I celebrated Chinese New Years! We went to a restaurant for the first time for the this occasion. Definitely changing the status quo but it's always a lot of fun to see family. The food was good and it was just a night of plain merriment.

Then, the entire family headed to Ashley's (cousin) house, gave out money, and danced! Fun!

Divine Going Down Hill

So today's morning was superb.

Oh god, it felt so good waking up with the sun already out.

So this morning, I woke up at 9 because of stupid Derek. Then, I got ready and Don picked me up with Derek and Nick at 10. After, we headed to IHOP to eat!! It was yummy and a very good morning but I was so full!!

School was splendid. The periods were easy, went by fast, and everyone seemed to be in a good mood.

After school, I went with Don to get his hair cut and I must admit that it looks much better. Then, we headed to Valley Fair and I got extremely frustrated with deciding what to wear for Sadies. I never really noticed how different me and Don were.

At night, I was supposed to go to dinner with Don and my family but a whole bunch of complications came up and I decided not to go anymore. I didn't want to go to dinner in bad mood so now, I must start on stupid Journalism. Hopefully tomorrow over all will be a better day.

Omg, Chad is so exactly like me. It's freaking scary! We keep saying the same things at the same time and we both like things that are totally out of the norm... o_o!

There's candy in my mouth...

Incensement and Vomiting

Today started out as a pretty delightful day and went by fast.

As the school day went on, I felt as if I were stuck in the median of a quandary. Well I wouldn't like to share it because it doesn't exactly have to do with me.

So for some reason, I liked 2nd period. Haha, wink. Then 5th period was fun as always, journalism. Lot's of camera whoring from Replica and I.

Oh!! It was so weird. Last night, I had a dream that my math teacher wouldn't give us any homework today and fortuitously, she didn't! She had gone over explaining our math homework from Friday too long so she wasn't able to teach the lesson, resulting in no homework for 2 days! Yay!

Then after school, I went to S.F. with Don and it was quite stressful. We tried to find outfits for Sadies. Nothing. We could totally not agree. Everything I wanted was too "pink" or "gay" and everything he wanted to wear was so fugly! Like, the ugliest colors you could think of, mixed together in one shirt. Ew and gag.

Although, sushi has made me feel much more content!



Omg, I fucking love my Replica!

This is what I do in class, lol.

The Things I Ate

So wow, I'm so effing sleep deprived. I've been staying up until like 2 every single night this entire week when I usually sleep at like... 12.

Yesterday, Don, me, and my parents went to sushi at Minato. Oh! And we finally made reservations for dinner on Valentine's Day at a place downtown called Scott's Seafood. I love seafood! I wanted to go to the Melting Pot but they were already booked all day on Valentine's!!

Today, I ate A LOT. Here is everything I ate after school (HAHAHA, not that you care):

At Don's house:
Like 4 Cutie's (tangerines)
Some Lucky Charms

At my house with Don:
4 Rice Crispy Treats
3 eggs
1 Soup at Hand
Some strawberry Haggen Dazs ice cream
Few packets of seaweed

Back to Don's house:
Half a tub of mango Haggen Dazs ice cream
6 crackers
Several shrimp chips

Yep, pretty impressive. I've just returned from Don's and now I must catch some z's!